so it goes...

it's 91 degrees here in brooklyn ny. ive been inside all day for fear of melting outside. so...ive started a blog. never in a million years would i have thought it would come to this. im not one for self expression, especially on the internet. but here i am. its cheaper than therapy.

im not exactly sure what will become of all of this. i guess it will just be a place for me to talk about whats going on in my life. books, music, movies, my cat.

dear void,
lately ive been feeling quite frustrated with my living situation. im trapped between a rock and a hard place. that is, being a descent human being and living in New York City. im finding that the two might be able to co exit. im definitely up for the challenge if everyone one else will join the fight for humanity. that sounds dramatic. here's my problem. i follow the basic rule of thumb of 'do unto others...' that does not fly for everyone. im just tired of sharing a sidewalk with people who walk 3 people wide and refuse to fall back into single file to let others (me) pass by. ive lately stopped pausing to let these so called "people" walk. ive got into the habit of walking straight into them Red Rover style. Body checking people left and right on my way to work.




now this is not nice and not who i am. but im tired of being a pushover for all of those hardened people who do not give a shit anymore. i still give a shit. and there is my dilemma. how do i live in a city of over 8 million people who seemingly do not have manners? dont get me wrong, i adore new york. every woody allen movie, every salinger book has led me to live here. and im happy. i just dont know how to let go. and do i want to? do i want to do whatever works for me and not worry about my fellow neighbors or strangers on the trains.

this is an ongoing theme for me...im sure ill revisit it again.